Friday, 2 January 2015

Looking Back at 2014


2014 has been a year of good and bad, a year when I really learned a lot about myself and what I want from life. Being unemployed helped me realise time is more important to me than I realised, and I would like to live a simpler life where time is valued more than money. I am a driven and easily stressed person and working a 30- 40 hour week is neither alluring to me, nor probably mentally healthy. I do find it easy to push myself to breaking point and I think it I have a lower threshold for taking crap from others.

I had a breakdown early in the year. It taught me to really appreciate the kindness of people and animals. My anxieties got a lot worse and I had to really learn to relax, take things slow. I had to stop being a perfectionist and be kinder to myself. I had to learn to stop looking to the future and just enjoy the good parts of the present. I am still working on teaching myself not to be a worrier, which I have been since childhood.

I have found something else I want to do. I am scared and excited and hope I will be allowed to.

I want to continue to nourish my spirit, meditate more, eat better, buy less, find a way to live more simply. I will work on not buying too many clothes! I want to learn to live without things I don't need, I need a few nice clothes, some books, and my family and friends. Oh, and to eat and drink and live somewhere of course.

I want to continue to write, but I know pushing myself does the opposite of what I want it to do, so I will just take it as it comes.

I have to remember that there is magic within us all!

Thanks to all those who helped me feel I was special and talented and, even if you didn't know it, supported me through the bad times with your kind comments and friendship.

I hope this year will be wonderful for you all!

Hugs and faerydust,

Laura Morrigan.


  1. Hard times help us grow and from my view, you have grown a lot in the last year! It might not make you happy right in the moment, but maybe later you can appreciate the personality that was formed in 2014...

  2. I hope 2015 brings you everything you're hoping for and more, Laura. You are special and talented. ❤

  3. Sorry to hear about the bad start to last year. Hope this year will be better!

  4. Exactly! Now breathe " look for the magic! it is everywhere if you want it to be"!

  5. I hope your wishes for this year will come true <3

  6. I hope your year 2015 will be indeed magical and your aspiration towards everything from nourishing your spirit to writing will be achieved! :) I really like reading your posts, you seem like a such a nice and warm person.

  7. Oh, I hope you learn to be kinder to yourself! I am so much older. If I had the chance to talk to my younger self, I would say, "Do what gives you joy. Be less afraid. Believe in your dreams, live simply." You are so talented, so smart. Just follow your instincts! Hugs and hugs.

  8. I think the life you're planning is wonderful :) more people should think like that.

  9. Laura, I hope you get to do what you want to do. Like you, I am a worrier, but as I've grown older I've learned to not worry about something unless I can actually do something about it. If I can't, I let it go...most of the time. It's hard, I know.

    You're much younger than me, but from what I can tell from what you've shared on this blog, you're so much wiser than I was when I was your age!

    Lots of hugs and blessings,


  10. I hope you find what you are looking for career wise this year, I've been going through something similar for the past 3 years (not to worry you!), before embarking on this, my 'writing year'. I'm terrified, to be frank, but I'm also excited. I have no income & dwindling savings, but I can finally do what I want.

    I kept a private blog before my current public blog, when I was going through a really hard time at work. I re-read this a week or so ago and in doing so I realised just how mentally low I'd actually gotten. It had built up over a 2 year period, but when you are in it, you can't really see it. Walking away in April last year was such a hard decision, but ultimately liberating. I can find who and what I want to be. In fact, that's actually started. And yes - I buy far less these days than before! But I am so much happier. And I hope that you find the magic, and fly. x

  11. Beautiful post! I understand a lot from where you are coming from ;o) You know how hard my 2014 was! Here's to an amazing 2015 ;o) Big Hugs and always be you! You are wonderful ;o)