2014 has been a year of good and bad, a year when I really learned a lot about myself and what I want from life. Being unemployed helped me realise time is more important to me than I realised, and I would like to live a simpler life where time is valued more than money. I am a driven and easily stressed person and working a 30- 40 hour week is neither alluring to me, nor probably mentally healthy. I do find it easy to push myself to breaking point and I think it I have a lower threshold for taking crap from others.
I had a breakdown early in the year. It taught me to really appreciate the kindness of people and animals. My anxieties got a lot worse and I had to really learn to relax, take things slow. I had to stop being a perfectionist and be kinder to myself. I had to learn to stop looking to the future and just enjoy the good parts of the present. I am still working on teaching myself not to be a worrier, which I have been since childhood.
I have found something else I want to do. I am scared and excited and hope I will be allowed to.
I want to continue to nourish my spirit, meditate more, eat better, buy less, find a way to live more simply. I will work on not buying too many clothes! I want to learn to live without things I don't need, I need a few nice clothes, some books, and my family and friends. Oh, and to eat and drink and live somewhere of course.
I want to continue to write, but I know pushing myself does the opposite of what I want it to do, so I will just take it as it comes.
I have to remember that there is magic within us all!
Thanks to all those who helped me feel I was special and talented and, even if you didn't know it, supported me through the bad times with your kind comments and friendship.
I hope this year will be wonderful for you all!
Hugs and faerydust,