24/07/13- 25/07/13 pretty much a stream of thought, draining from my head in puzzle pieces over the hours, I don't normally show such unedited writing, but this is from the soul. Soulstreamconciousness
I have always been inspired by the strange and beautiful. In my early teens it was Lestat, rockstar vampire, later on, in my black lace Goth teen years, David Bowie was an inspiration to me. His strange, abstract lyrics, the idea of recreating yourself as something strange and beautiful. I have spent over a quarter of my life trying to find myself, so I can really appreciate that. I was never happy to just go along, I tried that and it didn't work for me.
anyway, a few weeks ago, maybe less, I heard about Velvet Goldmine
it's also about recreating yourself, and a bit about Dorian Grey, and a lot about Glam.
it sounds weird to say but if you saw me in high school you wouldn't recgonise me. A mousy, runty kid with her head in a book and no social skills. well i still have my head in a book but I bluffed socialisation so long I eventually got the hang of it. Also I now have more friends with things in common with me. people I can relate to. it just took me time to find my place in the world.
i have always said i am a changeling, a lost faerie child, lost in a world of humans.
i even changed my name, and although I am not a rockstar I feel like I really did get reborn. from a caterpillar to a beautiful interstellar butterfly.
what is it about? elegant outrageousness to challenge the dull grey conformity we are born into? a world where teenagers get drunk and hook up with other teenagers as a social conformity, vile bodies merging with other vile bodies? i wanted something more, not tied to this earth with flesh, not fumbling in the dark, not just of a room but of existence. the dark age of humanity, no light to shine our way, no stars to be seen, an empty firmament of man's self worship. I always knew I wanted more, wanted to be more.
innocence, mixed with danger, mixed with darkness, we create our own worlds. the past and the future all at once. dirty decayed cities filled with magic, gleaming extraterristrial gods that look like beautiful dandies. we shock with glamour. every identity only a stepping stone on the way to the next. collecting soul kin on our way to the stars.
we can write worlds but we can't just dream it, we must be it! it is a Steampunk Revolution, a revolution of dandies and goths, and glitter children, a secret revolution no one understands. it's not just about dressing the part, it is being the part. Our clothes are who we are. we are someone different when we put them on. we are all transforming ourselves, caterpillars into coccoons into butterflies then into something much much better, something not yet discovered.
we are the lace and we are the silk silk sheets and the late nights and early mornings spent scribbling. We are our songs. We are our dreams. We dream ourselves up on moonless nights, and weave ourselves of spider silk.
writers and dandies, artists, musicians, we can be anything. the only failure is not to believe this.
'They stick up their noses at it, because they see it as mere escapism, or
as childish in some way. Well, first of all, what’s so bad about
escapism? Isn’t that one of the main purposes of art anyway? Isn’t
looking at a beautiful painting a form of escapism too?'
' The problem is that imagination is often seen as immature, something for
children that’s meant to eventually be grown out of. But isn’t that
sort of attitude what’s really childish? After all, we need imagination
for so many things. Einstein even said that imagination is more
important than knowledge'
1900, a German chocolate company made a series of predictions about
life in the year 2000. As in French futurist cartoons of the same date,
technology was expected to advance rapidly; fashion and social mores,
not at all." From The Historical Detective Agency Ltd on Facebook
Gyrating Ceiling fan approx 1925. Westinghouse was Tesla's company.
This fan is very rare and sold for $9000 American. Seen on an auction
show on TV, this seems to be the only picture of it online.
Going to my friend Stacey's place to sew for the weekend. I will try and get around to putting up the teahouse pictures from my Bastille Day Birthday party after that. There are still lots of reviews etc that need to be finished but I am so busy at the moment!
On Saturday 6th July I went to The Cobweb Club an Old School Goth music night that happens every few months, along with elaborate decorations and costume themes! This was a grand Winter Ball!
Most of the pictures are from Bryce and the Cobweb club photographer
From left to right: Bryce, me, Kat and another nice girl who I think is friends with them. She is very nice and an amazing dancer! Her dress is a redyed wedding dress and it looks amazing!
I also met Natalie from Gothy Two Shoes which was cool! She is lovely in real life and she gave me a hug! She looked fantastic too, although I don't have a picture!
Kat and I outside, wearing velvet. This is the first good photo anyone has managed to get of my coat which shows the cape bit and the velvet against the rest of the black!
Blurry but awesomely evil! :P
Flowers in hair- about $1 on eBay
Necklace- costume jewellery store
Fishnet top- opshop
gloves- made of old sparkly tights- I had to take them off, they got too hot!
Dress- opshop, apparently it is an old bridesmaid's dress from the wedding of one of the ladies. I love that! So Marla Singer! There is a blue layer of tulle under the black in the skirt! I love it! It's a little big but because of the plastic boning the shape still looks good.
Marla Singer in her bridesmaid's dress:
It's a bridesmaid's dress. Someone loved it intensely for one day, and
then tossed it. Like a Christmas tree. So special. Then, bam, it's on
the side of the road.
My ruffled parasol/ umbrella arrived on Monday, and then my skirt arrived on Tuesday, so I decided to take a walk to try them out. I don't really wear Lolita, but a friend shared this on Facebook and I had to have it. It had Steampunk looking clocks and a bllue and pale yellow circusy check pattern, and I am a sucker for that. It was pretty cheap anyway. $20 plus postage.
And I had to take some pictures first because I am so vain! :P
I went down the street to try the parasol out, I got a few looks and a few smiles.
There is definitely a Victorian flavour to the outfits in this but with some really nice modern alterations, perhaps a dash of Steampunk and Lolita. I know I saved a lot fo pictures but it was ages ago and I don't know where I put them. I think I have way too many pictures on my computer to ever find them! If you haven't read this, you really need to! I love the strange dark world they create and all the odd little critters in the pictures!
Russian fairytales were one of my favourite things as a kid (I
am actually writing a few retellings at the moment, but given how many
things I am writing and the moment who knows how long it will be 'til
they are finished) so I guess it's no surprise that Russian fashion